Thoughts

I’m watching this Taiwanese TV drama, 光陰的故事. At this particular episode, the eldest daughter in a family discovered that she is actually an adopted child. Because of her stupid nature, she’s trying to calculate how much her parents had spent on her so that she can repay them later; ranging from the school fees to food and beverages over the past 20 years.

It got me thinking that since I have extended my uni studies, the amount of extra money my parents spent. Depends on my results which will be out very soon, I might still have to do it again next year on top of the summer school that I’m going to enroll. 5 years of uni already damn it, coupled that with the high Aussie dollar which is about 1 Aussie to 3.1 RM at the moment.

Every time when I failed my courses, did I ever think about the money wasted on me? I did but it wouldn’t last long, still struggling to be motivated. I mean wtf, that is a lot of money. Regardless, I have some plans in mind, just hope for the best. Fingers crossed.

D&C 2

Another screwed up exam, shit man, praying hard here.

I thought the Vibration part would be easier to score but turned out otherwise. The control part ain’t easy as well. For those I’ve answered, I’m not even sure if that were correct.

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On a side note, I have been wondering what illness i have. Supposed that I have a few days left until the exam, since I still have a lot to catch up, naturally I would be hurriedly study up the rest of the course. But I just can’t study at all, even if I know I’m going to fail if I don’t do otherwise. I would spend time browsing the internet news site and youtube but not on my studies. Have I gone crazy or what? Totally lack of motivation and will to live.

Extreme procrastination. How can I shake this off? Please help me

Applied Aero Exam

I fucked up my Applied Aerodynamics exam!!!!!

Fucking hell!

31st October 2009

Pa just called. And we seem to have not much to talk. Well, still have something to talk about. It’s not like we are in bad terms or what. I have always want to share stories and happenings with my parents, its just that I literally don’t have a life thus not much to talk about also. I’m like my dad, quiet and reserved. The difference being he is less introvert than me and to the family my dad will always have something tell.

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Anyway, finally submitted my final year project report. After 8 months work in 2 semester, it’s over. I would like to think that I’ve done enough for that but I didn’t to be honest. I started to worry about the project outcome after I got 4.5 out of 10 for my seminar. It’s way lower than the average 6-7. Just hope that I can pass this course, if not i’ll have to repeat for the next whole year.

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Went to Liquorland to get some beer this afternoon. The cashier requested my ID but they don’t accept student card since it doesn’t prove my age. Had a hard time finding any ID that shows my age and the bloody cashier just took my Bud away from the cashier and placed them in backshelves. Then I sort of asked is driving license ok? He immediately said yeah. Err, I didn’t tell that it’s Malaysian Driver’s license. He struggled to find anything on that which proves my age since Malaysian license is different from Aussie’s. In the end i still got to buy my beer.

I just wanna rant. I’m a 22-year-old and I don’t have a babyface. Note that the last few times I bought liquor from the same shop I wasn’t requested to show my ID.

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Exams coming. Study hard please!

Lost my water bottle

Shit, lost my bottle today. I think I forgot to take it with me from the computer lab in Union House. Hopefully it will still be there so I can retrieve it tomorrow.

I really hate the feeling of losing something, even though it is just a small or invaluable item. There was one time my ball pen was lost and I was very annoyed because I was used to write with that pen. Even if i buy another identical pen, it will not be the same as the one i had.

The view from CATS F

CATS stands for computer aided teaching suite, it is a basically computer suite for engineering students in my uni.

Friday 16/10/09

Feeling tired at 10pm and its weird considering for the past 2, 3 weeks i have been sleeping at no earlier than 2am in the morning and woke up at 10 or so in the morning.

From now on I’ll try to write and record more with all the happenings in my life so I can always look back what i had done. However, I have absolutely no life. What to write? I’ll see…

Update!

This is a meaningless post really. Nothing much to tell in here although I really have something to tell but i’ll leave it to next time. In my first week of mid-term break, final year project will be finalised soon and our group doesn’t have much content to present haha. Gotta do more work.

Looking At My Life Through My Firefox History

It is amazing just by browsing through my web surfing history, I basically see my everyday’s life in it. That’s mainly because I spend ALOT of time in front of my laptop, mainly on the internet looking at all sorts of stuff which includes rubbish; My daily dose of Autoblog, Redcafe, Jalopnik, news, lowyat, youtube and so on. The nonsense part is interesting. Sometimes, when i was just looking for the meaning of a word or a particular thing (could be anything), it would lead me another topic and another topic and another. So in the end I spent all my time reading all these unnecessary things.

Facebook is another part i spend much of my time on. Those stupid games like Mafia Wars which i now play and a couple of others I was previously addicted to. I would just have to log on every hour or so to check the game status. Besides, the albums brought me from one to another. Photo after photo…

I have not had any entry since well…many weeks ago. Went to Sydney during the break, the time there was pretty good. Managed to go to a farm with Er jie and her friends. And now it is already end of Week 4.

Bloody hell, 4 weeks have passed and I still have no idea what’s going on. I’m very much overload in my studies this semester. 18 units over the usual 12 units. The school had advised me to drop some courses and even “threatened” to lower my score for my final year project if I’m found my contribution is less than other members. I just don’t care, I know it’s a tough job judging by my previous academic record. And I was suprised I passed all my courses last semester. I took 17 units and I expected to have maybe 1 or 2 supplementary exams but hey, all passed! Wasn’t that great!

This then sort of gives me a confidence boost so I took more courses this sem with the hope that if the school permits me to take a selected elective in the summer along with dynamics and statics then I can finish my degree by summer school. With a condition that I PASS all.

I asked about the Entrepreneurship course offered in the summer whether it can be counted as elective but I didn’t get a definite answer. Vahid has already taken it and he said the head of school told him that Mech Eng students can do that as an elective.

Well, right now I won’t bother so much. When I finish this sem, I’ll most probably enrol in the 3 summer courses. If they don’t approve of the Entrepreneur course, I’ll take Vahid’s example. If the school really don’t permit it, I will have no choice but to  stay for another sem. Then i’ll spend 5 months more for the study and graduation. Summer school ends on February with the graduation scheduled on April. Semester 1 ends on late June/early July and the graduation is scheduled on September.

One last thing, once again, I’m lacking motivation…in doing everything. Unmotivated to go to uni, to do the project, assignments, even lazy to write a blog post. The sole reason of maintaining this blog is to record my daily life, my thoughts and any happenings that worth remembering.

Again, buck up Chewy! A few more months to go to finish your bloody degree.

One Pass

Barely after a week my exams have finished, one of the results is out: System Modelling and Simulation. This was one of the courses that I felt I did badly, probably the worst exam I had for this semester.

This morning, I was quite suprised to see I got a pass, 62 overall. This exam was on the 1st July, and the results are published so quick. Not too bad I guess, considering I almost didn’t do 2/5 of the exam questions. I guess its pretty much helped by my coursework mark. Also, the lecturer David is a very nice chap.

Then after a while, I got an sms from a mate doing the same course telling me the result is already out. He hasn’t check his yet.

He’s so anxious that before he checks his result, he’s already told me. I know 62 is quite embarassed, well I did reply to him with my result. Guess what, he got 80, a HD. Not being bitter here, but he said that he didn’t expect this much as well as he just copied the solutions of similar questions in the exam.

I remember David said in the beginning of the semester this simulation course is an easy-scoring course, everyone should be getting a HD. This is basically a Math course with a group project of simulation during computer software. Because of that, I thought the exam wouldn’t be too hard so I didn’t study much for this course, only until a day or 2 before the exam. Then I found out it’s impossible to cover all the questions the night before, so I focused on just 2 questions hoping if I can get them right I can pass this course.

After the exam, I was terrified as I didn’t know how to do some questions at all. I was just hoping I can get 50-pass. Another friend Xiaobai didn’t tell me that for 1 question about the confidence level part, we can just copy from the notes from another course as it was taught before. I was quite pissed about this. He only said that after the exam. Fuck, with that question answered I could have got a credit at least, or even a distinction.

Nonetheless, I feel relieved as I expected to get a lot worse than this. But now, I started to worry about Heat Transfer and Combustion courses. These two caused a lot of headache too. Have to wait another week until the School publish all the Mech Eng results.

And…going to Sydney on Wednesday, hope I can really enjoy over there.